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Nov. 9th, 2008 @ 10:18 pm I'm employed and other updates
So, I last updated this thing in May so a lot has happened since then. I am no longer a temp at Shuster/STR, I was hired permanently in July. I make 32 grand a year, before taxes, which is better than nothing in this economy. I am one year closer to oblivion which is oddly comforting. The election is finally over which is nice, though it remains to be seen if any of the newly elected officials can actually get anything accomplished. The congressional majority is still small enough for a republican filibuster which could lead to some interesting decisions in the future. Picked up the new Ben Folds CD which is a nice mix of humor and good lyrics, as always. As is my custom, here are a few sets of lyrics to songs from the CD that I enjoy:

You don't know me at all by Ben Folds (feat. Regina Spektor)
I want to ask you
Do you ever sit and wonder
It's so strange
That we could be together for so long
And never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head
Things I've felt but I never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me at all

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin
Or a cardboard stand up and paint me (paint me anything)
Any face that you wanted me to be
See, we're damned by the existential moment
Where we saw the couple in the coma
And it was we who were the cliche
But we carried on anyway
So sure I can just close my eyes
Yeah, sure, trace and memorize
But can you go back once you know?

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me at all

If I'm the person that you think I am
Clueless chump you seem to think I am
So easily led astray, an errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash then
Why the fuck would you want me back?
Maybe it's because...

You don't know me at all
You don't know me, you don't know me

So what I'm trying to say is
What I'm trying to tell you is not going to come out like I want to say it
Cause I know you'll only change it
Say it

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me at all

Kylie from Connecticut by Ben Folds
It's just a thought
But where did it come from?
What does she do with it
If it comes back?

A note from his assistant
There by the telephone
She sees it again
As she turns out the light

Kylie is calling from Connecticut
She says you've got the number
It said Kylie is calling from Connecticut
It's there, on her mind
As she closes her eyes

She believes there are things you should know about
When you've married for 35 years
And her heart belongs
To a man that she hadn't seen
Since a magical night when the children were small

Kylie is calling from Connecticut
She says you've got the number
It said Kylie is calling from Connecticut
It's there, on her mind
As she closes her eyes

Kylie is calling from Connecticut
It's probably nothing, yeah, nothing at all
But Kylie is calling from Connecticut
It's all coming back
As she's reading old letters
That she'd hid in the closet
With her pictures she'd cherished
That she kept to herself
For a good 30 years . . .
Now she closes her eyes
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May. 6th, 2008 @ 08:55 pm Random update
Current Location: home
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
It appears that I only remember this thing when I have lyrics to share. In any case, I have a job as a lab assistant in Canton. It pays decently, though I'm only a temp. I may get hired, I may not, it all depends on how desperate they are for help. For now though it's a decent job with a decent commute so long as people can stop being idiots while I'm on my way to and from work, which is rare indeed. I should know by the end of the month by the latest. For some reason I've been on a Ben Folds kick in my listening habits, which is odd as he hasn't recorded anything since 2003. Whatever the cause it's good music. Here's a sampling of what I've been listening to lately.

Learn To Live With What You Are by Ben Folds

I know that you're in there
I can see you
You're saying you're okay
I don't believe you

And now that gig is up, the spell is broken
The fat lady's sung, the president has spoken
These days that you were waiting for will come and go
Like any day, just another day

There's never gonna be a moment of truth for you
While the world is watching,
All you need is the thing you've forgotten
And that's to learn to live with what you are

So freak out if you wanna
And I'll still be here
Don't call me for years and when you do
Yeah, I'll still be here

And I'm not saying that the effort is a waste of time, but I
Just want you for the things you couldn't change, but you tried
These hours of confusion they will soon expire like
Everything does

There's never gonna be a moment of truth for you
While the world is watching,
All you need is the thing you've forgotten
And that's to learn to live with what you are

Sometimes everything you've ever wanted floats above
It's stickin' out its tongue and laughing while
Everything that anyone could ever need is down below
Waiting for you, know this

There's never gonna be a moment of truth for you
While the world is watching,
'Cause all you need is the thing you've forgotten
And that's to learn to live with what you are
You've got to learn to live with what you are
You've got to learn to live with what you...
Are

Fred Jones Pt. 2 by Ben Folds
Fred sits alone at his desk in the dark
There's an awkward young shadow that waits in the hall
He's cleared all his things and he's put them in boxes
Things that remind him: 'Life has been good'

Twenty-five years
He's worked at the paper
A man's here to take him downstairs
And I'm sorry, Mr. Jones
It's time

There was no party, there were no songs
'Cause today's just a day like the day that he started
Noone has left here that knows his first name
And life barrels on like a runaway train
Where the passengers change
They don't change anything
You get off; someone else can get on

And I'm sorry, Mr. Jones
It's time

Streetlight shines through the shades
Casting lines on the floor, and lines on his face
He reflects on the day

Fred gets his paints out and goes to the basement
Projecting some slides onto a plain white
Canvas and traces it
Fills in the spaces
He turns off the slides, and it doesn't look right
Yeah, and all of these bastards
Have taken his place
He's forgotten but not yet gone

And I'm sorry, Mr. Jones
And I'm sorry, Mr. Jones
And I'm sorry, Mr. Jones
It's time

Quote of the Day:"Of all the things that can be stolen, opportunity is the most valuable."
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Feb. 2nd, 2008 @ 12:36 am I'm not dead..... not yet anyways.
Yeah, so I didn't realize that I haven't touched this thing in quite some time. A year has ended and a new one began. Still no job, which is unfortunate but with all the economic issues the US has had lately it's not entirely unexpected, annoying certainly, but not unexpected. In any case, I'm still alive and I'm listening to a lot of music lately with sources ranging from the Portal Soundtrack, SNL from who knows how long ago, and the radio

Still Alive by Jonathan Coulton
This was a triumph
I'm making a note here: huge success
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction
Aperture Science
We do what we must because we can
For the good of all of us
Except the ones who are dead
But there's no sense crying over every mistake
You just keep on trying till you run out of cake
And the science gets done and you make a neat gun
For the people who are still alive

I'm not even angry
I'm being so sincere right now
Even though you broke my heart and killed me
And tore me to pieces
And threw every piece into a fire
As they burned it hurt because
I was so happy for you
Now these points of data make a beautiful line
And we're out of beta, we're releasing on time
So I'm glad I got burned, think of all the things we learned
For the people who are still alive

Go ahead and leave me
I think I'd prefer to stay inside
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you
Maybe Black Mesa
That was a joke, ha ha, fat chance
Anyway this cake is great
It's so delicious and moist
Look at me still talking when there's science to do
When I look out there it makes me glad I'm not you
I've experiments to run, there is research to be done
On the people who are still alive

And believe me I am still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
I feel fantastic and I'm still alive
And while you're dying I'll be still alive
And when you're dead I will be still alive
Still alive
Still alive

It's a Dream by Neil Young
In the morning when I wake up and listen to the sound
Of the birds outside on the roof
I try to ignore what the paper says
And I try not to read all the news
And I'll hold you if you had a bad dream
And I hope it never comes true
'Cause you and I been through so many things together
And the sun starts climbing the roof

It's a dream
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away
It's only a dream
Just a memory without anywhere to stay

The Red River stills flows through my home town
Rollin' and tumblin' on its way
Swirling around the old bridge pylons
Where a boy fishes the morning away
His bicycle leans on an oak tree
While the cars rumble over his head
An aeroplane leaves a trail in an empty blue sky
And the young birds call out to be fed

It's a dream
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away
It's only a dream
Just a memory without anywhere to stay

An old man walks along on the sidewalk
Sunglasses and an old Stetson hat
The four winds blow the back of his overcoat away
As he stops with the policeman to chat
And a train rolls out of the station
That was really somethin' in its day
Picking up speed on the straight prairie rails
As it carries the passengers away

It's gone
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away
Only a dream
Just a memory without anywhere to stay

It's a dream
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away
It's only a dream
Just a memory without anywhere to stay

It's a dream
Only a dream
And it's fading now
Fading away

Car Crash by Matt Nathanson
I'm wide awake and so alive,
Ringing like a bell.
Tell me this is paradise
And not some place I fell.
'Cause I keep on fallin' down.

I want to feel the car crash
I want to feel the capsize
I want to feel the bomb drop,
The earth stop, til I'm satisfied

I want to feel the car crash
'Cause I'm dyin' on the inside
I want to let go and know
That I'll be alright, alright.

Push me til I have to fly
I've shed my skin, my scars
And take me deep out past the lights
Where, where nothing dims these stars
Nothing dims these stars, stars

I want to feel the car crash
I want to feel the capsize
I want to feel the bomb drop,
The earth stop, til I'm satisfied

I want to feel the car crash
'Cause I'm dyin' on the inside
I want to let go and know
That I'll be alright, alright.

So right, so wrong
I'm wide awake and so alive

I want to feel the car crash
I want to feel the capsize
I want to feel the bomb drop,
The earth stop, til I'm satisfied

I want to feel the car crash
'Cause I'm dyin' on the inside
I want to let go and know
That I'll be alright, alright.

'Cause I'm open wide
So right, so right
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Nov. 11th, 2007 @ 12:26 am Random Song of the day/week/month
Current Location: home
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Einstein on the Beach by Counting Crows
Einstein on the Beach by Counting Crows

Albert's always sincere, he's a sensitive type
His intentions are clear, he wanna be well-liked
But if everything is nothing, then are we anything?
Is it better to be better than to be anything?

And Albert's vision is blooming uncontrolled
All his wings are slowly sinking

The world begins to disappear
The worst things come from inside here
All the king's men reappear
For an eggman, fallen off a wall
Who'll never be together again

Einstein's down on the beach staring into the sand
Cause everything he believes in is shattered
What you fear in the night in the day comes to call anyway-ay
We all get burned as:

One more sun comes sliding down the sky
One more shadow leans against the wall, and

The world begins to disappear
The worst things come from inside here
And all the king's men reappear
For an eggman, fallen off a wall
Who'll never be together again

Albert's waiting in the sun
On a field American
For the cause of some inflated form of hit and run

One more sun comes sliding down the sky
One more shadow leans against the wall, and

The world begins to disappear
The worst things come from inside here
And all the king's men reappear
For an eggman, fallen off a wall
Who'll never be together again

Albert's fallen on the sun
Cracked his head wide open

The world begins to disappear
The worst things come from inside here
And all the king's men reappear
For an eggman, fallen, fallen

The world begins to disappear
The worst things come from inside here
And all the king's men reappear
For an eggman, fallen off a wall
Who'll never be together again

No never be together again
No no never never never again, uh huh
What you fear in the night in the day comes to call anyway
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Sep. 3rd, 2007 @ 11:36 pm General update and random songs
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: 9 Crimes by Damien Rice
Tags:
It's been a while since I've posted anything of substance here so here goes. I went to the ACS national meeting in Boston in an attempt at getting a job. That failed though I did do a little networking. I've posted my resume on Monster.com despite their recent security gaff, and I've been "recruited" by a chemistry temp firm. Supposedly I have marketable skills that are desired in the chemistry work force. Who would've guessed? In any case, I'm waiting to hear about any possible openings from the temp firm. The following songs are three songs that I've either heard from House or the iLike challenge app, enjoy.

Ain't No Reason by Brett Dennnen
There ain't no reason things are this way.
It's how they always been and they intend to stay.
I can't explain why we live this way.
We do it every day.

Preachers on the podium speaking to saints.
Prophets on the sidewalk begging for change.
Old ladies laughing from the fire escape,
Cursing my name.

I gotta a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same,
A window and a pigeon with a broken wing,
You can spend your whole life working for something,
Just to have it taken away.

People walking around pushing back their debts,
Wearing paychecks like necklaces and bracelets,
Talking about nothing, not thinking about death,
Every little heartbeat, every little breath.

People walk a tightrope on a razors edge.
Carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons.
It could be a bomb, or a bullet, or a pen,
Or a thought, or a word, or a sentence.

There ain't no reason things are this way.
Its how they've always been and they intend to stay.
I don't know why I say the things I say,
But I say them anyway.

But love will come set me free.
Love will come set me free, I do believe.
Love will come set me free, I know it will.
Love will come set me free, yeah.

Prison walls still standing tall.
Some things never change at all.
Keep on building prisons, gonna fill them all.
Keep on building bombs, gonna drop them all.

Working your fingers bare to the bone.
Breaking' your back, make you sell you soul.
Like a lung, it's filled with coal,
Suffocating slow.

The wind blows wild and I may move.
But politicians lie and I am not fooled.
You don't need no reason or a three piece suit,
To argue the truth.

The air on my skin and the world under my toes
Slavery stitched into the fabric of my clothes
Chaos and commotion wherever I go,
Love I try to follow.

Love will come set me free
Love will come set me free, I do believe
Love will come set me free, I know it will
Love will come set me free, yeah

There ain't no reason things are this way.
Its how they've always been and they intend to stay.
I can't explain why we live this way.
We do it every day.

9 Crimes by Damien Rice
Leave me out with the waste, this is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you
It's the wrong time for somebody new
It's a small crime and I've got no excuse

And is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright with you?
If you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it?
That alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright with you? With you?

Leave me out with the waste, this is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place to be cheating on you
It's the wrong time, she's pulling me through
It's a small crime and I got no excuse

And is that alright? (Yeah)
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright? (Yeah)
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

That alright? (Yeah)
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright? (Yeah)
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?
Is that alright? (Yeah)
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright? (Yeah)
Is that alright? (Yeah)
Is that alright? (Yeah)
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
No...

Sail Away by The Rasmus
Once upon a time we had a lot to fight for
We had a dream, we had a plan
Sparks in the air we spread a lot of envy
Didn't have to care once upon a time

Remember when I swore
My love was never ending
And you and I would never die
Remember when I swore
We had it all
We had it all

Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away

Once upon a time we used to burn candles
We had a place to call a home
The dream that we lived
Was better than divine
Everyday was like a gift
Once upon a time

Remember when you swore
Your love was never ending
That you and I will never die
Remember when you swore
We had it all
We'd never fall

Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
Fade away, twilight's calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away

No reason to lie
No need to pretend
I'm grateful to die
To live once again
I'm fearless to fly
And reach for the end
And reach for the end
ohhohhhohhhohhh...

Sail away

Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away

Sail away
The night is calling my name
Sail away
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Aug. 3rd, 2007 @ 12:20 am Song of the week
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: draineddrained
Degenerate Awakening Catharsis by ALI PROJECT

Lamentable walls are piled up.
Ignorant deities are worshiped


Life is a poisoned cup.
No one can show me how to drain this cup of needless suffering.
A wise eagle is said to live in the sun.
The flapping of its wings are the only that echoes.

In each of these eyes
dwell darkness and light
Through which
Shall I look to tomorrow?

A dried out and ruined city,
Draws the lines between the dots,
Causing meaningless events
To overflow.

Soothing the loneliness
That flames up within the body,
Droplets of water fall towards the culvert

Even if the poisoned cup is upheld and filled with this life,
My dream that yearns for death drifts into it.
The eagle remains aloof and its talons dig into the fort.
Only the flapping of its wings resound

Let me crucified in the blue sky
I'll stand where heaven and earth meet.

Fruit-like memories are
Burned, inflamed, and emptied.
My spirit from the past days,
Where is it gone now?

Cold flesh draws near and touches,
Matching wounds on each other's chest in contact,
We hereby engrave
The map we should revisit.

The world is an invisible wing,
Shoot down the pure-white bird
That hides behind its dark shadow.

Life is a celebratory drink.
Mouth-to-mouth gratifies and wheezes out dry laughter.
On the palms of love-making comfort,
Only emptiness keeps growing.

If I beautifully died a hero's death,
You would be still waiting at the end of ecstasy?

lamentable walls are crushed down
Ignorant people are massacred


Life is a poisoned cup.
No one can show me how to drain this cup of sorrowful love.
A quiet eagle is said to sleep under the moon.
Its call is the only thing that descends.

Even if the poisoned cup is upheld and filled with this life,
A daring game of death will never be terminated.
The eagle remains aloof and its talons dig into the fort.
Only the flapping of its wings resound

Let me crucified by the blue sky.
I'll decry the age that begets crime and punishment.
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Jul. 16th, 2007 @ 01:56 am Song of the day
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: old
Current Music: GOD DIVA by ALI PROJECT
First off, thank you to those who wished me a happy birthday. Secondly, thank you to those who either forgot or didn't notice it was my birthday so as I don't feel too terribly old. In any case I got a couple of dvd boxed sets and in those sets I received two soundtracks. From .hack//roots I gladly type the lyrics to GOD DIVA for you the public.

GOD DIVA by ALI PROJECT

If you were offered a seed of happiness
By an angel that lives in hell
What would you do?

Unfortunate person,
I can sell you a magnificent tragedy cheaply.
Would you care to try it?

Even if you fell into an unpredictable trap,
Would you still believe
The skillful lawyers
Will come and help?

Welcome. Welcome.
This is a place of salvation.
Just be silent
And entrust yourself to it.
Forget it. Forget it.
The confusion of this world
As you walk the path you desire
It's a rose-colored catastrophe.

A lackluster reality
and inhuman lust is on the stage of life
It's a sold out show

Someone else's misfortune
Tastes like honey that drips cruelly.
Do you think it
Ever happened to you?

Welcome. Welcome.
Take some blood from paradise.
All you have to do is lower your eyes
And reach out your arms.
Dream. Dream.
At the depth of afterlife
As you are split by a needlepoint
The moribundity of a tragicomedy.

Behold this ugly scenery.
The tower built on sand trips your feet.
Destroy it. Destroy it.
With your own will

Welcome. Welcome.
This is a place of salvation.
Just be silent
And entrust yourself to it.
Forget. Forget.
The confusion of this world
A traveling companion has left
And you face a dead end
A scorching catastrophe.
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Jul. 3rd, 2007 @ 12:02 am Epitaph of Twilight - Again
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: dorkydorky
Unknown where the Cursed Wave was born...
After the stars doth cross the heavens...
The sky in the East doth darken.
And air doth fills with mourning.
From the chosen land beyond the forest,
A sign of the Wave comes.
Riding the Wave is: Skeith, the Shadow of Death,
to drown all that stands.
Mirage of Deceit, Innis,
Betray all with the flawed image,
and did aid the Wave.
And by the Power of Magus,
a drop from the Wave doth reach the heavens,
and creates a new Wave.

With the Wave, Fidchell,
the power to tell the dark future,
hope darkens, sadness and despair rule.
Gorre schemes when swallowed by the Cursed Wave.
Macha seduces with the sweet trap.
Wave reaches the Pinnacle, and escape none can.
Tarvos still remains with more cruelty to punish and destroy.
And with the turbulent destruction after the Wave.
Only a void remains.
From deep within the void arrives Corbenik.

Yet to return, the shadowed one.
Who quests for the Twilight Dragon
Rumbles the Dark Hearth,
And Helba, Queen of the Dark, has raised finally her army.
Apeiron, King of Light, beckons... At the base of the rainbow they meet.
Against the abominable "Wave," together they fight.
Alba's lake boils.
Light's great tree doth fall.
Power - all now to droplets turned in the temple of Arche Koeln.
Returns to nothing, this world of shadowless ones.
Never to return, the shadowless one.
Who quests for the Twilight Dragon.

The wife buffeted by "waves" turns her back on the field.
The daughter that waited for the shadows repeated,
"For sure... For sure I can go home."
But the girl did not know...
The truth that waited at the end of the journey
The eternal mourning of her land.

In the place of the calamitous, only life was known.
After the circling stars
When the eastern dark void, the air full of despair
In the depths of the divided forest, in the land of Karma,

Riding fast on the path is Skeith
Bearing death's shadow, it eliminates all that seek to thwart it.
The Confusing Mirage, Innis
Decieves those that see it with illusions, rescues the waves

The wave soaring high, when its head is smashed,
A new wave will emerge
To become Magus's power.
When questioning the wave,
Hope's light will be lost when he speaks of the dark future of where sorrow and resignation reign.
Using Fiddlehiem's Technique

When englufed by the Waves of Calamity, Gorre will plan
The sweet snare of conciliation is Macha
The Waves, an exceeding maelstrom
Nothing can escape

When you think you have escaped, Tarvos exists
To destroy those with his exceeding cruelty
Upon violent requital, only to remain is the void, the vacant darkness
is the harbringer that Copernic is to appear.

Epitaph of the Twilight
Emma Wieland
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Jun. 26th, 2007 @ 11:36 pm Song of the day
Current Location: Home
Current Music: She Don't Want Nobody Near by Counting Crows
She Don't Want Nobody Near by Counting Crows

She don't want nobody near
But you can't get away from that
They appear and disappear
And they all get a string attached
Pretty soon they got you hanging on a line
Pretty soon they're singing one by one the same old rhyme
They say, "I'm alright, I just can't get home tonight."

She don't want nobody home
Cause it's a little too crowded then
But she don't wanna be alone
So they just keep pouring in
Pretty soon they got her headed for the door
She comes home to find that they're not hanging 'round no more
She says "I'm alright, you just can't get home tonight."

Don't you wonder what she looks like in the light?
She says "I'm alright, I just can't get home tonight."

Pretty whitewashed lies
Endless alibis
And the reasons that need cleaning every night
Half a world away
You can't wash away the stain of the deceiving
And the things that you cannot believe, and well...

She don't want no one around
Cause she don't want anybody to see
What she looks like when she's down
Cause that's a really sad place to be
Pretty soon she gets them crawling up the walls
Then she wonders why they beg her please to never call
She says, "I'm ok. It's alright. Hey, look who's on TV tonight."
She says, "I'm alright, I just can't get home tonight."

Don't you wonder why it's dark outside at night?
She says, I'm alright, I just can't get home tonight.
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Jun. 1st, 2007 @ 12:25 am Tired, though I really shouldn't be..
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Life is Like a Boat by Rie Fu
Yeah, I graduated somewhere around 3 weeks ago. It was a nice graduation, albeit a little long and I had to wear a cap and gown for it. Think grim reaper with a mortarboard instead of a hood over his head. It feels good to be out of school, though a little frightening at the same time. I had good friends up there and I had a more focused sense of will. I had a singular purpose, to get up go to class and comprehend my courses. Now, the world seems a much larger place and with its growth I feel small in comparison. What were these past four years really preparing me for? Does my love of chemistry coexist with any sort of job market? Will I actually make something of myself? In going to college to find the answers to questions I never really thought of, I instead feel I left with the questions I should have been thinking about. An upside of all of this is that I'm getting more sleep while keeping my college hours. In any case, I'm back in Hanover, waiting for an ACS meeting in August to hopefully find a job, until then I'm resting, saving my energy for a brighter tomorrow.

Life is Like a Boat by Rie Fu
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Breathing in the distance
As if I've become transparent
It seemed to be the dark
But I was merely blindfolded

I offer my prayers
And wait for a new day
To the end of the sea
That shines vividly

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People's hearts move
And want to slip out
The moon in its new cycle
Brings along boats again

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

The journey is still continuing
On the calm days, too
The moon in its new cycle
Begins to shine on boats again

I offer my prayers
And wait for a new day
To the end of the sea
That shines vividly

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Rowing the boat of destiny
The waves assault us
One after the next
But that's a wonderful journey, too
Any one of them is a wonderful journey
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Apr. 15th, 2007 @ 01:58 am Another few fitting definitions and song of the week
Current Mood: sleepysleepy

Adam Herlihy --

[adjective]:

Fuzzy to the touch



'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com



Adam Herlihy --

[noun]:

A hermit living in the big city



'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com


Funny Bunny by The Pillows

Defying the Voice of the king,
You were laughing the night you revealed it
Sitting on the hill where one can touch the aurora,
You invited me with open arms...

Unraveling scattered beads,
You said they're pretty and presented them to the night sky

Clowns don't show their bare faces
Like a joke, they disappeared one day

Today, too, the world spins so easily
And with that speed my tears are also dried

It's not due to anyone
That your dream is fulfilled
You chose to run
On a strong, windy day

Right about now
I wonder where you are and what you're doing
I can imagine you're shyness showing
Through the back of the figure that I want to meet

It's not due to anyone
That your dream is fulfilled
You chose to run
On a strong, windy day

Even if I can't fly, I'm not insecure
The ground is continuing
Let's go to that place we love
You can do that
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Apr. 2nd, 2007 @ 01:24 am The Everthing Test
Current Location: UC, of course
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Sunrays and Saturdays by Vertical Horizon

The Everything Test

There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all.

Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-)

Personality
You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about others than concerned about self, more atheist than religious, more loner than dependent, more lazy than workaholic, more rebel than traditional, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.

As for specific personality traits, you are innovative (64%), intellectual (63%), adventurous (62%).

Stereotypes
Old Geezer67%
Geek53%
Punk Rock53%
 
Life Experience
Sex25%
Substances3%
Travel15%

Politics
Your political views would best be described as Liberal, whom you agree with around 50% of the time.
  Socioeconomic
Your attitude toward life best associates you with Upper Class. You make more than 27% of those who have taken this test, and 98% less than the U.S. average.

If your life was a movie, it would be rated PG.
By the way, your hottness rank is 45%, hotter than 10% of other test takers.

TAKE THE TEST
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Mar. 30th, 2007 @ 12:07 am There's Nothing Wrong Lyrics
Current Mood: crappycrappy
Current Music: There's Nothing Wrong by Cosmic Rough Riders
There's Nothing Wrong by Cosmic Rough Riders

There's nothing wrong,
there's nothing wrong.
I'm not lying, no need to hide the truth.
It's just that I've been thinking...
That you and I are not the same
but that's okay I don't want to fight again.
It's just that I've been thinking...
You know how I'm feeling
Like my soul needs some healing
But I can't seem to pray.
I'm tired trying to keep out
All the worry and sweet doubt
that you bring me today

But it's all right, I'll come around
because I'm trying to play it down.
I can hang on,
Till the time comes
I'll be just fine.

Somethings gone, somethings died
I don't know how much I should mind
It's just the way I'm sleeping
Feelings gone, try to wake me
Memories that try to break me down.
But only while I'm sleeping.
I feel like a soldier
Looking over his shoulder
And waiting to bleed
There's a battle behind me and another inside me.
And there's no retreat.

But it's all right, I'll come around
because I'm trying to play it down.
I can hang on,
Till the time comes
I'll be just fine.

There's nothing wrong,
there's nothing wrong.
I'm not lying, no need to hide the truth.
It's just that I've been thinking...

That it's all right, I'll come around
because I'm trying to play it down.
I can hang on,
Till the time comes
I'll be just fine.

But it's all right, I'll come around
because I'm trying to play it down.
I can hang on,
Till the time comes
I'll be just fine.
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Mar. 29th, 2007 @ 12:11 am Burnout, double lyric post
Current Location: UC, of course
Current Mood: groggygroggy
Current Music: First instant, last report by Earlimart
So, I've hit burnout mode in record time. My sleep cycle is so far out of whack that I took a 4 hour nap this afternoon. That's right, 4 hours. I know I have many other things I should definitely be doing, such as lab reports, research papers, presentation research, etc. The only problem is that my body refuses to get sleep at the proper time. It's gotten so bad that I'm beginning to black out during my supposed sleeping time. Last night I went to sleep around 2:00 am and the next thing I knew it was 7:30 am I was proped up on one arm with my eyes open staring at my turned-off computer monitor and totally disoriented. I managed to get back to sleep for about an hour and then proceeded to go through my day. Hopefully this won't last for too much longer because I don't know how much more I can physically take. On to the songs!

Tell the Truth pt.1 by Earlimart

yeah I lost my way
and tried to find
somewhere else to stay
well I looked around
and finally found
you had nothing left to say

all your secrets were told
coming out now
they're bought and sold
I hope it's not too late
but we found it hard
to stand up straight

tell the truth today
tell the truth today
tell the truth today
I tried to tell the truth

well I know I'm outta reach
and all these songs
they're outta key
but I guess you just don't know
oh you don't know shit
about me

tell the truth today
tell the truth today
tell the truth today
I tried to tell the truth

First instant, last report by Earlimart

first instant, last report
we threw that all away
to think of futures
in the same phrase
we took that right away

I'm up off the floor
I'm up off the floor
I've been down/done before

to show my face
to keep my head straight
I wave my goodbyes
'cause everyone's got
broken promise
this plan we'll revise

I'm up off the floor
I'm up off the floor
I've been down/done before

first instant, last report
we threw that away
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Mar. 13th, 2007 @ 10:43 pm Back at home, regaining sanity slowly
Current Music: Next Year by Foo Fighters
Came back home on Friday started relaxing immediately. I still have a lot of quant homework and lab reports, but that can hopefully wait till I get back at college. My sanity is slowly returning to its usual level of quasi-existance. There's still a long way till graduation and a lot of work yet to be done. Hopefully I'll still have time to update this in the coming months.

Next Year by Foo FIghters

I'm in the sky tonight,
There I can keep by your side
Watching the wide world riot and hiding out
I'll be coming home next year
Into the sun we climb
Climbing our wings will burn white
Everyone strapped in tight
We'll ride it out
I'll be coming home next year
Come on get on get on
Take it till life runs out
No one can find us now,
Living with our heads underground
Into the night we shine
Lighting the way we glide by
Catch me if I get too high
If I come down
I'll be coming home next year
I'm in the sky tonight
There I can keep by your side
Watching the whole world wind around and round
I'll be coming home next year
I'll be coming home next year
Everything's alright up here
When I come down
I'll be coming home next year
Say good-bye
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Feb. 8th, 2007 @ 11:33 pm So very tired
Current Location: UC, of course
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: All My Friends by Counting Crows
Ever have one of those days where you just feel like you shouldn't bother to get up? It's happening more and more to me these days. There's no reason to get up to do things but there isn't any reason not to do anything either. Caught in limbo once again. No reason to smile, no reason to cry, no real reason to be, really. This isn't a cry for help, nor is it meant to raise any flags. Just giving everyone who still reads this blog a reason to why I'll be going into self-imposed exile for a while. I'll be incommunicato for a while it seems, longer than usual perhaps. If you really need me send an e-mail, but don't be surprised if you don't get a response.

All my friends by Counting Crows

Thought I might get a rocket ride
When I was a child but it was a lie
That I told myself when I needed something good
At seventeen, had a better dream.
Now I'm thirty-three and it isn't me
But I'd think of something better if I could
All my friends and lovers leave me behind
I'm still looking for a girl
One way or another
I'm just hoping to find a way
To put my feet out in the world
Caught some grief from a falling leaf
As she tumbled down to the dirty ground
Said I should have put her back there if I could
But everyone needs a better day
And I'm trying to find me a better way
To get from the things I do to the things I should
All my friends and lovers leave me alone
To try to have a little fun
One way or another I just wish I had known
To go out walking in the sun
And find out if you were the one
Does it make you wanna come a little closer now?
And did you wanna dance with me?
Did you wanna hum a little harder now?
Can you see her waiting there?
Can you see her? Because I'm almost there
Can you see her waiting there for someone like me?
All you want is a beauty queen
Not a superstar but everybody's dream machine
All you want is a place to lay your head
You go to sleep dreaming how you would
Be a different kind if you thought you could
But you come awake the way you are instead
All my friends and lovers shine like the sun
I just turn and walk away
One way or another
I'm not coming undone
I'm just waiting for the day
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Jan. 21st, 2007 @ 03:35 pm generalized update, song of the day, quote of the day
Current Location: UC, of course
I'm back at UC had most of my classes at least once except for my Monday night class. Most don't appear to be too strenuous though almost all of them have some presentation component. In any case, I recently picked up an older Snow Patrol CD during break and here's one of my favorites from it.

An Olive Grove Facing the Sea by Snow Patrol

Sworn to secrecy I might go after school
She was an angel I saw her swimming there
I am in such a mess I can't cope without this
She just teases me pretends she can't see me here

So let me go out there
I can breathe fresh air
Stay with you all night
Just let me love you
Just for a while want to
Be with you all night
Be with you all night

Until I fall asleep
Just let me be here
I won't tell anyone

Don't want to wake up

The blind lead the blind so why can't I find my way
This could be heaven but I don't know where I am
I am to scared to come out from behind here
My body is aching it feels like it's wearing me

QotD: War destroys more than just the land. War destroys hope.
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Dec. 12th, 2006 @ 06:43 am Songs of the week
Current Location: UC, of course
Current Music: Carbon Leaf
Picked up the latest Carbon Leaf album on Saturday and both of the songs of the week come from said album, enjoy!

Love Loss Hope Repeat by Carbon Leaf

Take a walk downtown, and dream with me
We'll walk all the parks and empty streets
You know the seasons ought to be
Love, Loss, Hope, Repeat
We're alone in a crowded room
Silhouetted and ready to bloom
You know the seasons ought to be
Love, Loss, Hope, Repeat

And when the high wind blows everything
Like the lion attacking the spring
I love you more than I'll ever let on
And that's a fault I'm working on
I'm working on
Take a walk downtown

Remember the days that would never end?
So much time you couldn't comprehend?
When the sun's so slow to fade
And tomorrow's more of the same
And the easiest April rain
Was enough to ignite the flame
And you'd fade out with a grin
With the company you were in

And when the high wind blows everything
Like the lion attacking the spring
I love you more than I'll ever let on
And that's a fault I'm working on
I'm working on
And when the sky's a dusky hue
And everything is bottle blue
I love you more than I'll ever let on
And that's a fault I'm working on
I'm working on
Take a walk downtown

And jump the train line down
And then turnaround at the edge of town
Or continue down, to the other side
And ride and ride 'til we see our lives
And see our lives from the outside
Our city walls and the darkened halls
And the lonely calls
And when we turn around and head back in
Everything will be new again
Everything will be new

And when the high wind blows everything
Like the lion attacking the spring
I love you more than I'll ever let on
And that's a fault I'm working on
I'm working on
And when the sky's a dusky hue
And everything is bottle blue
I love you more than I'll ever let on
And that's a fault I'm working on
I'm working on
Take a walk downtown

Under the Wire by Carbon Leaf

I need to feel redeemed
I'm going sideways down
An ever-winding road
With a never-unbinding load
Of a one-track mind
Of a love that's lost somehow
Of a flashing sign
I'm under the wire now.

Under the wire I'm a train down the line
Nothing left to lose or gain but distance over time
Under the wire over all that we've been through
Tell me what to do to get to you

I need to feel the breeze
Of a new day's dawn
I need to be released
From the cold steel rail I'm on
Shake the love for a woman
Take the train to oblivion
At the crossing of our lives

Under the wire I'm a train down the line
Nothing left to lose or gain but distance over time
Under the wire over all that we've been through
Tell me what to do to get to you

I need to feel redeemed

I wear my heart on a grimy sleeve
I bear the pressure of oil and moving steam
Unaware of my gaining speed
Unprepared to move ahead or take the lead

Under the wire I'm a train down the line
Nothing left to lose or gain but distance over time
Under the wire over all that we've been through
Tell me what to do to get to you

I'm a steel freight train
I am a train wreck
Hauling back to you
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Dec. 4th, 2006 @ 06:51 am Been a while, Crunch time is in full swing
Been a while since I last posted anything and for good reason. I have two 5-page papers that I need to finish writing and I also have to edit my pieces for beginning creative writing so in total that's at least 15 pages worth of text that need to be written/revised. In any case I've also been doing some screen shots from Trinity blood namely from the textless ending. My photobucket site can be found here. in any case here's a song of the day if not week, depending on if I update again:

Same by Snow Patrol

Maybe somewhere else will not be half as cold as me
The curtains drawn, the winter sun makes patterns on your face
It looks like some kaleidoscopic breathing exercise
It's the same, it's the same, it's the same
It's the same, it's the same, it's the same

Baby, won't you breathe?
Baby, won't you breathe?

Hold me in your freezing arms before we have to go
I wince a little but it's not because I know the truth
The windshield of your little car is frosted through the clouds
A clear heart of air appears as we shiver on the seats
It's the same, it's the same, it's the same
It's the same, it's the same, it's the same

Treat it as a test, Treat it as a test
Baby, won't you breathe?
Baby, won't you breathe?
It's the same, it's the same, it's the same
It's the same, it's the same, it's the same
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Nov. 13th, 2006 @ 06:55 am another double lyric of the week post
Current Location: UC, of course
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Funny Bunny by The Pillows
Defying the voice of the king,
You were laughing the night you revealed it
Sitting on the hill where one can touch the aurora,
You invited me with open arms...

Unraveling scattered beads,
You said they're pretty and presented them to the night sky

Clowns don't show their bare faces
Like a joke, they disappeared one day

Today, too, the world spins so easily
And with that speed my tears are also dried

It's not due to anyone
That your dream is fulfilled
You chose to run
On a strong, windy day

Right about now,
I wonder where you are and what you're doing
I can imagine your shyness showing
Through the back of the figure I want to meet

It's not due to anyone
That your dream is fulfilled
You chose to run
On a strong, windy day

Even if I can't fly, I'm not insecure
The ground is continuing
Let's go to that place we love
You can do that

One Life by The Pillows
The poppy petal
Was shaking without wind
It was because of my sigh
Although I don't remember, it must be so

I'm wrapped up in the darkness of daily life
I'm struggling with freedom
I can't peek at my face
Because of the bright dream I had with you

There is only one thing that
I can reflect in my dirty mirror
It is not a fake light
You're my light

I, snail, removed the twisted chain
and left for a journey
Although the body is struck with rain and worn out
I won't go back

I was thrown out from
The mirage of color town again
Although I want to decieve myself by saying
It is because the loose tiptoe is obstructive too

No matter what kind of shoes I wear
There are my footprints left behind me
If I stop, that'll be it
it is a sign of the ending

There is only one thing that
I can reflect in my dirty mirror
It is not a fake light
You're my light

I'll lose this untouchable memory someday
Even if there is no shape remaining.
You're my light

The poppy petal
Was shaking without wind
It was because of my sigh
Although I don't remember, it must be so
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